June 26 2009

So as this month comes to an end..I start to think about it..and it went by reaallyyyyy slow. As packed and fun as it was, it really took its time. I'm happy with the way the month is ending but that's okay. It's about time I stayed home -_-; I went out 14 days in a row. Some of the time I didn't even come home. Ha. -_-; Way too crazy in some point. Partying needs to head away from me for a little bit. Because I'm kinda tired. no no. I'm fuckin exhausted and drained. Meeting you guys opens major doors for me but I'm not too sure if I like those doors. So I'm closing them. I needa vent. Don't care what you think if you ever do read this..here I fucking go.

Who's the jerk now? That was a bitch move and I'm sorry if this is immature, but you played your game wrong. If you meant what you said the last time we spoke then you wouldn't of been on my ass about things. You know what, overrall. Don't lie to me, I'm very understanding and I'm not stupid. If you're not into it, then you're not. I'm not gonna take it up the ass. But leavin' a girl hanging on thinking what the fuck is going on is NOT the business, yanno? Don't trip boo. I'm young, but I'm not stupid. I'm just disappointed on how you treated everything. But we're still cool. You're a tight homie, I guess.

I can NOT. I repeat. I cannot cannot cannot wait until I get out of here. Wesco is calling my name already. I wanna get out and get out quit. I seriously think these people will live their life better without me. I just cause more drama and trouble and real talk. I just DON'T fit in. Right? Right. SO SOMEONE GET ME THE FUCK OUTTA HERE...

Yanno. I've officially been single for a good year and I think it's finally started to sink in..I'm not saying I'm gonna start looking for someone to be with, to finally call my boyfriend. No. I'm going with the flow. Come to me. But I'm just tired of boys..no. I'm tired of liars, fronts, players. Get out..please. I'm annoyed of you guys. Seen too many these past few months.

DUDE, senior year. I don't think you know how excited I am ! =] Weeeee ! I'm so psyched. I passed algebra 2..with a D- =[ BUT ITS OKAY. I still fuckin passed dfuckingaf honestly. That shit was hard and a fuckin mission.


I'm over everything.


MAMA NEEDS TO FIND HER HOOD NIGGA PLEASEEE.

June 14 2009

So Jazmyn is to my left KTFO and I'm super bored. She woke up early while I slept so I guess this is my karma. Haha.

Anyway...Junior year is OFFICIALLY over and I can now say I am finally a senior. =] Highkey tho..these past three years went by like a crazy motherfucker. I can't believe how many things have changed since freshman year and how much I have changed mentally. What I'm most proud of is that I am not sitting here thinking I don't like what I've become. I am content with what the world has given me and all it's opportunities. I'm happy. At least I think I am. Even if I am in denial tho...I'm still standing tall. Senior year is going to open so many doors for me. Well..they're gonna give me a lot of doors, and it's not my CHOICE to choose to open them, but to gain enough strength and power to have the opportunity to. HIt me with your best shot. I'm ready for anything.

Well, lately. I have been enjoying my life. Everything seems to be at an all-time high. I've been living the nightlife and soaking up every single bit of it. Now that summer's finally here...Oh my, what a crazy summer this is gonna be. I can already feel it. Waaay crazier than last summer, that's for sure. Cos I won't be in Vegas for a month of it. Wasting my damn time there. I can already feel the summer love and heartbreak. What's gonna happen this summer you guys? I feel like things are gonna change, things are gonna evolve, and things are definitely..gonna end.

&To the one who knows this is for you after you read this:

Thanks for spending so much time with me lately. I feel like I've been taking up too much of your time so I'm gonna take a baby stepback to let you do your thing. Because I know when you start to miss me, you'll be hitting me up within seconds. So I'll just kickback till you come. You know you're still the fuckin best.

Oh and this little bitch to my left is my fucking best friend to the max. We had lovely talks yesternight and we know the fuckin businesss. B]

&to my other best friend, a.k.a. brother. I love you so much, Long Nguyen. I'm happy you're gonna start kickin it more. We need that time ! See you ina bit. It's summer so expect me at your pad a lot more often. BUAHAHA =]

To you guys;

I was looking at past memories, gotta admit..I miss you guys. I know I've went my seperate way ..but we all have in a sense. I know I come off and dgaf fck it, whatever. I don't ever want you three to think I'm still not here tho..I'm here, whenever you guys need me. I love you guys.

Ahh, good venting session. Havent done that ina good minute. And Jazmyn is still knocked the fuck out. Imma chop her hair off now. Deuce!