So long sweet summer..

Happy birthday Fatrick.

There is one more weekend left in my summer, sheeeeeeeeeeeshhhh ! : I'm gonna miss all the late nights, going out every damn daayy. Summer 'o9 you were amazing to me.

I just worry

I'm happy we finally got to talk about what was going on and cleared all the tension with us. Thank you for approaching me and settling it. I've been wanting to tell you what was on my mind, I just didn't want you taking it the wrong way. I just honestly worry about you. Believe it or not..even though we don't talk everyday. You still pop in my head....everyday. And I think about ya..everyday. I just wonder how you're doing, if you're happy, and sometimes I'll reminisce on certain memories. But I want you to know, wait wait. scratch that. You already know, but I wanna remind you again. I'm always here. You already know how I feel. I'm sorry if I gave the wrong idea and made you think that I was angry with you. I wasn't. Just disappointed, but I'm happy that you're understand what I mean. Just making sure you're okay..and most of all. I wanna make sure that you're happy..cos that's my main concern.

Oh & btw..

You are still just full of disappointment to me in my eyes. You are a chapter in my life that I will need to re-read a million times before I fully understand, but even then it's still not enough. You're like a drug that I must take daily, but I am never fully satisfied with the result. You are just a never-ending story full of nothing but bullshit and lies..and you easily then make up for it with your sweet, sweet amazing, love.

When are you going to come out to your own fuckin' senses? Realize what an amazing thing you got going for you RIGHT infront of you? I'm starting to quit on waiting till you fucking GROW UP, cos this pain is just excruciating.

Both my middle fingers are up cos I don't give two fucks anymore!

I don't know which hurts more, the fact of losing you..
or the fact that you're not trying to keep me.

As time slowly increases..

I cannot, cannot, CANNOT believe summer is coming to an end. Wow. I'm really..I don't know. Yesterday, it just hit me. We were late night crusin' in an overpacked car with the people who pretty much dominated the end of my summer..and damn. I'm really gonna miss it. The late and crazy nights. This summer was AMAZING. I can't even stress that fact enough. I swear, there wasn't two days ina row that I didn't go out. Somedays I'd take a day off, but that was rare. I practically went out every single day. Barely any drama, a bit of heartbreak but it had a good ending. Cliche enough, I'm really really sad to see summer end. As excited as I am to start my senior year. I can't picture..not seeing certain people EVERYDAY anymore. Who woulda 'thunk' that I moved in with my best friend by the end of summer ? Sheesh ! How can you beat that? I really needa give out my thanks to my TRIO and BFFFFFFL. Long, Jazmyn, & Kirst. You guys rule my summer. I talked to each of you everyday and kickin it was never an issue. I think I did pretty much everything I wanted to accomplish this summer. Roadtripped, visited a theme park, crazy party nights, met buncha new people and still have more time to do the rest ! Bowling next week. :) I'm not even gonna think about any bad times of this summer. Cos there were definitely more pros than cons. I can't even imagine how next summer is gonna be. When I'll finally be driving. -_-; I just need a car. Sheeesssshh ! Pretty much you guys..let's end this summer with a fuckin' bang, ya?