as this is specifically for you..

i feel so stupid for letting myself get involved with you. many times, one after another you constantly chose to hurt me. I'm not saying any of this to try to start things up again, to get you back. I'm saying this because I want you to feel bad. I want you to feel like shit because it's not fair that you put someone through so much pain but you still get to be happy. It's not fair. I hate you for that. You lost a good friendship. I hope you know that.

Let me know where this bites you in the ass. Cos I'd love to hear about it.